Guys suck...

Yes that right ... guys suck ... all they do is make you believe they like you then they break your heart ... now this guy .. we'll call him Joe. I liked Joe, and we were getting along great and then yesterday he came online and called me all these names. Then he comes on again and claims it wasnt him, said he was sry and all this other stuff then he came on again and started calling me names again ... like WTF! I'm mad now ... and I duno what to do ... BAH!

WHY?!

Ok well as you all probably know, the last couple days have been a real bummer. While today was alright yesterday was the pits and I just want to fill all you cyber people in because I feel like venting and Dan isnt home or online! WELL:

Theres a guy named Barry. He was a part of a family I've traveled to church with for the past 3 years. 2 years ago he was diagnosed with Cancer. Over the past 2 years he took all his treatments and we thought he was going to beat it. Over the past 2 months, he was put in the hospital once for a couple days and then let out. The 2nd time in was his last though. He was there about a month and he finally let go yesterday.
Barry has a daughter, Lily. Lily, my lil sister, and me are like family. We're distant cousins down the line a way but we hung out a lot over the 2 years. We went to church together, youth group, VBS and then the past few months there was the pageant. We even went camping the same weekend together.

We are so close with this family that me and my sister are considered the adopted children who live in a different home. Yesterday after we found out, We tried to get people to keep it as quiet as we could so other people wouldnt constantly message her. Because this is what i think...SHE DONT WANT YOU TO BE SORRY FOR HER! She wants you to be there for her! No we don't know what it's like, and she probably wouldnt want us to know what it is like but come on! How many of us want ours friends to constantly tell you that they're sorry for you? I dont! I mean she'll hear that enough at the funeral for crying out loud! I love her to death, she's basically my little sister which makes this harder for me.

One little note to a certain someone who said that it seemed like I didn't care... NEWS FLASH! I couldn't do much because as much as i knew this was coming, I didnt believe it myself. Now that it has sunken in ... well the story says it all. I'm dont hate you ... I'm just exetremely ticked that you would say that after everything.

Something else happened yesterday ... I found out that one of my new friends is being charged by a guy he was in a fight with. I found out today that he has to go to court and if they find him guilty then he has to go to juvy for a few months ... That was hard. I found out that within an hour of finding out that last big thing. I was in like deep no mans land. Things were the worst of worst right then.

Well...all this is kinda really really crappy considering right before we got the phone call I was planning a day at the beach with that friend who is in trouble and another one....

That is my vent ... not much of a vent then a place to just get it all out ... or maybe that is a vent ... Anyway! Don't feel sorry for me but put your time after you leave a comment to use by praying for those people ... Lily and her mom and family, My friend and his stupid decision, and for everyone out there dealing with Cancer, the aftermath, going through the courts, the kids in juvy, their parents...or maybe just for yourself and your family ... Just pray ... even if just to thank god that you aren't me! Thank you.